My girl is coming to visit me!!!!! So excited :) Need a piece of home here in NYC <3

Kindness

The inspiration to reach out to someone in need should come from within. I have been struggling day to day about my future and my goals, what am I studying and is it even worth continuing it? I receive constant criticism based upon my decision to help others- quite ironic I believe. Moving to NYC has shown me that judgements get passed quicker then expected, in my culture at least, when it comes to studying towards a degree thats sets the tone towards the idea that money is not the main source of income for its degree. The main source of income, instead, is a feeling of happiness. The feeling to touch the life of someone else, is probably the most rewarding aspect in regards to studying Nonprofit Management.

The other day I was on the subway and an old man struggled to get on the train. As I looked at all the stronger and taller people around me, who could have easily helped him, I noticed society today is lacking the true kindness individuals should inhibit. Maybe its technology, maybe its the lack of social contact with one another, or maybe its just NYC- the point is, I helped him on and off the train and even made sure he had a place to stand, with his cane in his hand.

Ironically, the night before I was struggling about my decision to pursue this dream I have set forth, one that is giving me such a difficult time because of others judgements (which never used to let me down, but lately it has...). The old man simply looked at me and said "you rejuvenate kindness in NYC, we need more people like you"...

As much as he made it clear that I made his day...I hope he realizes that he helped me strengthen my decision to follow my heart.

I walked off that train with confidence. One can only tell me how much they believe in me, but to me, I need to feel it to believe it. That day, I felt it.

New Lesson

I have recently learned, from traveling back and forth from Cali to NYC, that I am a true hater of good byes. I did not normally think saying bye, see you soon would be such a dilemna, even when I say it to those who are not the best of my friends or family. I think just knowing I am leaving, is the idea that sticks in my head, forbidding me to turn my head and say "bye" or "see you later" without letting a teardrop fall for a split second.

Unfortunately, saying good byes are going to be part of my lifestyle for some time now...

Got to make the best of how I spend my time with everyone! <3>